I just thought you all should know, I am "compulsively self reliant" according to the psychology articles I just read. So that means that I have a hard time trusting other people, allowing anyone to care for me or provide for me, and I can't form close relationships (especially with males) because I have taught myself that I am the only one I can rely on, because I've been hurt too many times in the past, and disappointed by people in the position of taking care of me.
so. just so you know what mess you're getting in to.
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in other news, i love all my friends so much and it hurts me to see them upset about anything at all. because sometimes i feel powerless. i cant make all their hurt and pain and stress and worry go away. I wish I could. I would do it in a heartbeat. All I want to do is see them smile again...
the worst thing is when a friend of mine has been treated horribly by someone else in their life that was supposed to be their friend. i could count a few examples right now. no one deserves to be treated that way.
why are people on this planet so incredibly self-absorbed that they can't see the effect their actions have on other people around them?
maybe people lack compassion. maybe people dont have feelings. maybe people have been hurt so many times that they dont notice when they are hurting other people.
this might really sound lame, and retarded... but thats the world speaking to you... try to just take my words as they are- the truth, the real way i feel...

I absolutely love you to death. and people who don't value you, don't deserve you.