So I haven't updated this in a little while. Mostly because I didn't feel like disclosing what was going on in my mind and heart. I really don't want to put in to words the emotions that i'm feeling right now..
There are alot of things that I want to change about our dorm. I am not enjoying this year on campus... I don't think we have the unity that we should have. There are too many things going wrong. Like, my STUFF is going missing. I can't stand that.
I have a kitty that I love and adore.
I have feelings that I can't confront people about because I'm too nice. My opinions are well established and thought about, but I don't like hurting people's feelings.
This year has been good in some ways.
I'm back at redeemer and thats so important to me. I'm taking my studies even more seriously than last year, and I'm talking to a lot of new people... or people that I atleast didn't get a chance to know last year.
I can't wait to go to NYC in like three and a half weeks. It's going to be a blast. I love living in new experiences, and taking it all in.
I have felt so much closer to God lately, and it's been such a blessing, but i'm afraid that lately i've been so busy and haven't put enough effort in to the relationship, and I'm starting to become distant again. I don't want that to happen at all.

There are some things I believe in so much, and I am stubborn in things that I think are right. I will defend them as much as I possibly can. and its really taking a lot out of me right now.

Also. i'm all over the place feelings wise. i dont know where i stand, or what i want. i'm tired of being in this in between stage. gah.