You know sometimes, I just want someone to talk to. But people think "oh its just Michelle, she's fine, she's got it all pulled together"... but that's so not true.
Somedays I get pretty lonely. You know how it is. Feels like I do nothing right. Especially in the boyfriend category. Like, WHAT boyfriend?! I'm gunna be single for my entire life, right? There's either something terribly wrong with me, or terribly wrong with every guy I'm ever attracted to. Although there is a habit in my family of the females falling for all the jerks... and missing the nice boys. So, it's possible.
But yet, I'm happy you know. Happy about being free. Happy about learning about life and not being tied down. Happy about being able to flirt with whomever I choose...
On another note.. I'm tired of people who live on the surface. I haven't had any good in depth talks for a long time.. the last one was with Lindsay, like the week before I went to California, and that's because it was close to midnight, we had to talk to stay awake driving home...and I was also upset with a boy.. Why do they tamper with my emotions so much? Someone just needs to come in and treat me right, and I'm theirs forever. but it's not that simple.
I want someone of either gender to show up on my front porch, and question all lifes meaningless things with me.. then ponder the real, deeper stuff that matters.

Goals for this year:
- less drinking
- be real
- more spiritual
- more studious
- meet more new people
- keep the great friends i made last year
- less fears, no regrets.